pause
when all wars were won
and all knots came undone
we were lying still
far from a worldly drill
looking up to the sky
the question wasn't 'why'
now it was a 'what'
a nameless thought
a road unknown
but old we had grown
inert and stuck
tied down in the muck
A tired duel
lost i feel
the words they betray
a bruise waiting to smart
a story yearning to be told
but are you so sacred that
my inner self
blocks from telling
how you came to be
my war with destiny
draws a second wind
of love more lost than lived
i am tired and turning my weapons in
she tosses me around
and gives me a new lease of life
each day i gleam in
the hope that this one
shall take me through
but before i can take a step forward
warning signs flash that
this might be my end
and i quiver
coz cautious i have become
self-preservation has kicked in
from the mistakes of a reckless abandon
that my former self enjoyed
all choices were wrong it seems
none led me to be
the person i had wanted to become
but i am here still
someone not so alien
i retain some of the will
to get it alright still
but patience all warn me
will be the virtue
that sails on this sea
were it not i think
the rebels who brought to be
the inventions that today
make our lives easy
who i am- i question
a good girl who will
comply, abide by and perish
or a guilt ridden conscience
who will be someday forth
hailed as the best ever
where do i draw a line
with none to guide me
but solitude they say
is the hero's destiny
Destined
We were not to be
but then why did we
meet at the crossroads
and fall so strong
we lost all directions
and sense of purpose
suddenly the journey
was all that came to pass
and you are..
when i met you so i thought
you came as an answer to my prayers all
but now as time flies
new questions arise
feel like my history text book of old
I clutch to my chest for a past of gold
stars in my eyes i have no more
a hollow void thirsty to be filled
the search resumes the subject hidden still
easy to amuse easy to annoy she said
but difficult to love maybe
i find peace in that definition too
takes pressure of my many demons
a release from the hankering that had been me
but you are there
you will always be
in you i seek my bliss
but Bliss I am says He
so i look up the dictionary
to find you a meaning
in your complicated ways you laugh at me
"I am the way"
That is what you say
"I am the door
But you hold the key
"And I can take you this far
Farther , if you say 'please'
but you have to go
your own way , you know
No one will merge into me"
dil se nikal kar
har kasak ka ban tu marham
mast aisa kiya aaj
main to naachi sudh bush khoye apni
bhule lok-janam ki laaj
main naachi aaj
tujh ko paakar
tujhko apne tan-man mein basakar
deewane hai, kahkar hase mujhpar log
hasi main unki deewangee par
pal bhar mein tu aaya itna paas
tu hi tu raha bas
aur to ab na kuch bhi aye raas
tere geet gaaon
teree bawri firun main ghat ghat
tu hi aakar apna le mujhe
tu hi bihah mujhe , tu hi utha ghoonghat
repetition
ever dreamt of something with the passion of death
that you lived it in every breath
and suddenly it came to you all true
and you felt nothing but a deja vu
go on, would you..
or dream another one or two
and what if they say
you havent got a second
this is what you were meant to mend
which one would you let be
and which one would you let pass?
Tip the balance
Am i here
or am i needed somewhere else?
was it good or bad
will this one be a good spell?
Why is it that I
give all control away
when it is only I
who can make the way
why does it hang in balance
when will the balance tip
a decision be made
one pan of the scale dip
and i realise
this is the path i take
none other i look out for
commit, abide by, have faith
and God give me strength
so my woes be tiny
and counting those blessings i
grateful forever be
dont tell me it is written
dont tell me there is no hope
for fights i have fought and still will
till life runs out of me
so give me some weight
and push me to the edge
so as i fall i know
a decision has been made
